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| Robyn Member Sat, 4 Apr 2009 10:13am | I've been struggling with severe clinical depression and BPD for the past 6 years now, and have on many occasions taken too many pills. Not always with the actual intent of ending my life, but to get that high/numb feeling and to knock myself out because i'm sick of hurting inside and don't know what to do anymore. I've had some real close calls but never taken myself to the hospital because i'd taken the pills the night before, and when i woke up in the morning feeling sick, in pain, dizzy, and blurred vision, i figured it was too late to get help. Last night i took too many trazadone pills..not a very high dose but more than i was supposed to take..and i'm not feeling good at all today. I know it's stupid and I know I have a problem. I think about suicide a lot lately and i feel that no matter who I talk to or what i do nothing works and that it's all pointless and nothing will ever change. I'm just so sick of feeling this way and trying. I'm sick of feeling completely alone and having evryone i have ever loved or cared about give up on me. I hate what i've become. I'm 24, i have no friends..nobody to call when I'm at the end of my rope and feel like giving up. I can't even hold a full time job because i have no motivation to do normal every day things, to get up out of bed in the morning and make myself meals..simple things. I'm just wondering if anybody knows how long after you know you've taken too many pills do you have to go to the hospital and get help? It's been 10 hours now..is it too late? I feel so stupid...I can't do anything right. I just can't take this anymore.... | ||
| Support Team Administrator Mon, 6 Apr 2009 10:25pm | Hey Robyn, Good question, and we can't emphasize our answer enough - it is NEVER too late. We're really concerned when we hear you taking excess medication - we aren't medical experts and can't say for sure how it will affect you, but know that it can do prolonged harm to your body. We do understand, however, that you are in a lot of pain and looking for a way to numb it. When you say you're at the end of your rope and feel like giving up, have you been considering suicide Robyn? From what you've shared with us it sounds as though you're feeling extremely isolated with nobody to turn to for support. How long have you been feeling this way? Did you have people in your past you could turn to for support Robyn? Hang in there Robyn, The Support Team | ||
| Isabel Member Thu, 28 Jan 5:50am | Robyn You say you feel everyone you have ever loved or cared about gave up on you - now I ask you: did you gave up on yourself? If so, shame on you dang it! Because you are far too special and sensitive to EVER be given up. And you mark my words. Secondly, I must say I don't agree that those who love you gave up on you. When we give up on ourselves, we feel so lonely, so empty, that it get's truly difficult to sense the concern others feel for us. It's like we lose sight. And then, there must have been an occasion or two, when you got so scared of saying something wrong, hurting, and making it all worse, that in the middle of all your love and care, you went to your corner, your silent and dark corner, where you are worried secretly. I did that. Many times. With family, when pain and sorrow was near, I did not know how to react, how to make it better, and got scared of making it all worse - so I stepped back so I would remain unseen, but still could see. Could it be that this is your beloved one's case? As I don't think they would give up on you. "You are amazing, and gave up on yourself.. If you can't listen to yourself being the amazing person you are, how can I make my simple word count? Worth something to you? How can I convince you?" Now you ask why you are amazing, isn't it? You can have many answers to that, but I'll start and end on the first one. Through all the pain - pain that most people never dreamt of - and sorrow and tears, through all the despair, through everything that hurted you, marked you, and haunts you; through all these extreme conditions, you are still here, fighting, even if tired. You are still standing, even if trembling. You are indeed a fighter, and not many can say that about themselves. That alone, is something to be proud of. As you had life as your enemy, and you didn't got defeated. You had yourself as an enemy, and you did not get defeated. It is easy to survive life when life doesn't attack you - and that was not your case. That is why, you have the merit of a hero, saving yourself everyday, every second. Remember that, please. I mean nothing to you, but please, for me, remember that. You are amazing. You should respect yourself for your strength, courage. For all that you stood against, and are standing against. About the pills popped? - we all have our mistakes, on the past. So is yours in the past, have you noticed? Learn from it, treasure yourself, and try not to repeat. Sometimes, mistakes can be seen daily, in the form of a scar. Or of a ghost. But remember it is something from the past. If that much, use the bad feeling it gives you, to keep you away from present actions. But still,: Past. Please, accept the challenge from life, and survive - so one day, you can Live. -give us back some news- Honestly concerned, Isabel | ||
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