August 13, 2012 at 6:01 am #16347
I HATE SCHOOL SO MUCH. I really really don’t think that I have the strength to go back there again this year.
-I was treated like complete garbage by the girls in my grade. They talked in front of me about how ugly I was and how badly dressed I was, and I was too scared and stupid to say anything-
And the horrible thing is…I just KNOW that I’m going to go back there, and their going to be awful to me, and I’m just going to sit there and quietly take it, and store all my pain deep inside again. Last year, I hated myself by the end, and even hated my life. I don’t even know what to do anymore. It’s all just going to be the same. :'(
August 14, 2012 at 4:27 am #18344
You should inform your parents about what’s going on. Maybe if it’s an option, try and switch schools if you can. No one should be treated that way. The staff on this website are very helpful and I’m sure they can give you ideas on how to handle this situation.
August 15, 2012 at 1:07 am #18347
I can tell that there is a wave of dread threatening to overwhelm you, hystericalharpy… It sounds like after the treatment you got last year, you can barely stand the thought of returning to face more. It clearly took quite a toll on your ability to like going to school, and even on your self-acceptance to put up with the harassment that you did; I can imagine that you must have felt angry and trapped, but also terribly helpless to take their taunting.
I can hear that for you, that pain had to be buried deep inside, and I can sense that maybe you’re concerned about how much more you can take before it all comes bursting out. There are so many emotions for you right now, and I wonder if you’ve found anything that helps you cope with them?
Mike is right to say that nobody should have to go through such treatment, but I also know that it’s not necessarily that easy… As always, we won’t give you advice, but we could help you brainstorm some resources. We are “hear” to listen.
I get the sense that things are going to be very difficult as the school term approaches. Stay strong, hystericalharpy.
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