January 16, 2014 at 10:30 pm #16451
I am currently in grade 12. The last 2 years, honestly I don’t remember anything of it. It’s such a blur. I have been to hell and back. I just got out of treamtent about 3 weeks ago. I was in treatment for 3 and a half months, it was one of the hardest things I did. It was traumatizing in a way. The girls whom I lived with wasn’t just my friends, they were my family. The treatment was a new living enviroment, I managed to make it my home. Im still struggling with my recovery. With the addictions I had was horrible. My parents kicked me out for a while, I was homeless for a couple of day. I didn’t eat for 4 days, didn’t shower, I did anything to just get the feeling of being high again. Everyday of my soberity and being clean from drugs is a challenge. I just passed my 4 month sober and clean mark. I feel more healthy and clean now!
January 18, 2014 at 4:58 am #19046
Welcome to youthspace, Heidi09! You have quite a story…thank you for sharing it with us here.
I get the sense that it feels like you’ve been on a wild ride for a long time, tossed about by forces that threatened to overwhelm you. You say that you’ve been to “hell and back”, and I can hear in your words both how agonizing the hell of addiction was at points, and how gratifying it is to have been able to come back from it with the help of the treatment centre. I can hear that it’s still a challenge for you, and I imagine that being away from the people who surrounded you while you were in treatment (your new “family”) is part of the challenge… you must miss them; are you able to keep in touch with those who helped you as you continue with your recovery outside of treatment?
I believe you when you say that every day of being clean and sober is difficult to manage, so please believe me when I say that I think you show a lot of strength and courage in having made it this far. Know that we’re here to support you if you want to talk as you keep walking this path… we’re here for you on the good days and the bad.
-The Support Team
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