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      morge18
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      Health: I’ve been dealing with my health for about a year; having difficulties. It has affected me in every way possible which I thought wouldn’t affect me to this level. I never realized how it would affect me when to me, it’s nothing horrible and I can manage. I was wrong. It has affected my…

      Work: My health has affected my work. I worked in pain, discomfort, sacrificed my health for work many times, over and over again. It started to affect me on a great scale of…

      Mental Health: I started to become depressed, angry at the world around me, hated myself, destroyed relationships and on thin rocks with some people. I took my anger and frustration out on someone, to many times, which resulted in…

      Friendship Issues: My health and mental health has affected my relationship with someone. I don’t even know if that could even be improved. I always say I will improve but, I don’t. It has lead to…

      Feelings of loneliness: I feel alone in all of this. I want my friend to be beside me, to hold me, provide comfort to me, but it’s not happening. I have no one to really support me. This lead to the extreme of…

      Depression and Suicidal Thoughts: I’ve been dealing with my health for nearly a year, it started to affect my life, work became harder, I became depressed and suicidal over my health because it prolonged for a very long time with no answers. I was stuck trying to figure things out and I couldn’t bring myself out of depression like I would normally be able to, this resulted in feelings of suicidal thoughts. I couldn’t handle my own feelings and began to cry more and more, without stopping. This resulted in me…

      Self-Harming: I hated myself and the way I was feeling. So I decided to self-harm. I would have caused more damage but something inside told me to not go further. I could have gone further because I felt nothing. Later things started to happen more and a result this is what happened…

      Not Caring: I began to not care about things, lost interest in things, my pets and myself. It got to the point I didn’t have any respect for myself, I had lost self-control and lashed out again. I wanted someone to care because I didn’t care about myself. Later this ended as…

      Damaged Relationship: I can’t even talk to my friend, he won’t get back to me, I feel he doesn’t care and is fed up with me. I feel so alone.

    • #18822
      Youthspace
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      Hey there Dashing Daisy. It really seems like your life in the past year has been a precariously balanced line of dominoes, and that when the first domino tipped it triggered the whole line to come crashing down. I can hear how emotionally ragged you feel, and I imagine you’ve been completely blindsided by the problems that have arisen in your life as a result of your struggles with health.

      I can hear how lonely you are feeling right now, longing for the comfort of a friend who is shutting you out. I can hear you are feeling frustrated that he does not fully understand how your mental health has affected your engagement in the relationship. I would guess a part of you is grieving the closeness you once shared, and that you are struggling to find an outlet for the feelings you would have at one time confided in him.

      It sounds like you’ve hit some really low points recently, Dashing Daisy, and that both suicide and self harm have been on the table for you. Can you tell me where your thoughts are at around suicide right now? I can hear that while you have turned to self harm recently, you have also found your boundaries with it and stopped yourself from hurting yourself to a dangerous level. Do you feel confident you can continue to maintain those boundaries with yourself?

      Glad to hear from you, Dashing Daisy, I hope you’ll keep in touch as you navigate the difficulties in your reality right now <3

      the Support Team

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