August 7, 2014 at 6:27 am #16482
Hi, I’ve been having a tough few months with my recent diagnosis of anxiety an depression and at work(I have worked with them for 3 years now)I have been put in positions where I will have panic attacks or breakdowns because of my boss saying something like ” You need to work faster” or “your co-workers are saying they don’t think its fair that you only get this much done and they get the same amount done but then have to help you”. Ever since I started there, There has been this talk of “Team Work” “helping each other out” “no harassment” ect, ect, and now that I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression they have been treating me differently and I’m now scared to go into work because of possible panic attacks or breakdowns and Confrontation with my boss. How do I put this fear to rest? I’m confused and scared about the whole thing.
August 8, 2014 at 2:59 am #19223
Welcome to the Youthspace forum! Thank you for reaching out — it sounds like it has been a trying couple of months. No one should have to suffer through these feelings alone.
I can hear that you’re not feeling like your work is a safe space for you right now. It seems like your recent diagnoses would give you enough to worry about without adding work problems into the mix! Your coworkers and bosses comments are triggering you to fixate on your anxiety and depression and how it affects your work. I’d imagine this could become a rough cycle, becoming more anxious about your work, leaving you unable to complete as much work as you would like and then redoubling that anxiety.
It’s unfortunate to hear that you are suffering from the stigma attached to mental illness. Know that mental illness is not a moral failing or a deficit, but a treatable and common problem. You don’t deserve to be treated with less respect than anyone else. It sounds like there are rules in place that try to prevent this sort of harassment occurring, but that hasn’t stopped your coworkers from treating you differently.
I encourage you to take care of yourself and meet your own needs. The thought of having a panic attack or breakdown at work must seem so terrifying, especially with all the judgment you’ve received lately. Perhaps you could touch base with your boss about how the environment at work has been lately. How could you approach this conversation with your boss?
If you ever feel like talking some more about what’s going on for you, our chat service is open from 6 to 11 PM PST.
We’re here for you,
August 21, 2014 at 5:10 am #19224
I would feel uncomfortable even asking to speak to my boss or supervisor. Its always been like that. I would let people walk all over me. It is like that at home,school, and work. Even in fights I would just take it. I’m always scared to voice my opinion or my worries when it comes to things that make me uncomfortable or feel small and useless. When I want to voice those things I try but my body just goes numb, My voice doesn’t work, my thoughts become scattered, and my body freezes up. Its like I loose control over everything. I’m scared and its hard to fix it.I can do it online just fine but when im faced with it in real life it just scares me.
August 22, 2014 at 4:59 pm #19226
Thank you for sharing your struggle here with us, I’m glad you feel comfortable talking in this format. We are here for you!
I’m getting the sense that the anxiety that washes over you in those moments of conflict is completely overwhelming. It seems like you know what you want to say, and how to respond but your body just doesn’t cooperate! I can imagine that you feel betrayed by your own body in those moments.
When you say you want to “fix it” I’m wondering if you have spoken to anyone about that desire? Have there been modes of coping or working through this anxiety that have worked for you in the past?
July 6, 2017 at 6:58 pm #22956
Thank you so much!!. After this talk even though it didnt seem like much at the time It got me through!. It helped me cope and find the help I need. Im more comfortable at work now and get along with everyone just fine ! I do have moments where I still think they think the worst of me but those pass fairly quickly. I still have a long way to go at home and school but even then its a bit better. I did take meds for a bit there but they didnt help much so those went away and I tried group therapy that helped for a bit but not long. So I got one on one and that worked wonders. I think though that I’m at that stage that I need to start going and seeing someone again and start the meds all over again but the doctor I have now is always away….
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