Hi drifting,
I can hear how desperate you are to feel normal and relaxed again. It sounds like the one method you’ve found that can help is not one you want use to use anymore because it causes those around you pain as well. It must take a lot of balance on your part to work through what’s happening for you, while still trying to keep your word to your mom and it can feel like it gets harder everyday.
I also get the sense that the anxiety from not self-harming is compounded with the anxiety of completing school assignments when you’re at a low point. I would imagine you’re feeling completely overwhelmed.
drifting, if you are looking for other ways that might help to release some of those horrible feelings inside, I have a link (http://www.nshn.co.uk/downloads/Distractions.pdf) that has many alternate ideas and distractions, you may find something that could work for you.
I’m also hearing that you have been able to stay away from self-injury for the past two weeks, what did you find helpful during that time?
You can also reach the Youthspace support team via chat or text every day from 6pm-12am PST.
-Youthspace <3
