Hey Hullaballoo22,

Sounds like you’ve got alot on your mind these days.. I imagine you’re feeling pretty stuck. Wanting to reach out and form these relationships, wanting to feel included and part of it all.. yet at the same time the activities that most of the people around you are partaking in and talking about (ie sex, drinking etc) are not experiences that appeal to you at all. I have a vision of you screaming to the sky in frustration, because there seems to be no answer. Do you bow to peer pressure and start doing these things that you don’t want to, or do you stick to your guns and continue to feel left out…

I can tell that your beliefs and convictions are very important to you. With the song, I picture you on the verge of feeling powerful in your ‘oddball’ness.. if only you could find other oddballs to rebel with. I suspect it might only add to your sense of loneliness, hearing a song that is supposed to pump you up to be who you are with the rest of the oddballs, but having it make you feel like you are the only one who feels that way..

I hear you searching for meaning and for connection… and I’m glad you have reached out to talk about this with us…have you been able to open up to anyone else in your life about these feelings of isolation?

Stay connected,
The Support Team

Hey Hullaballoo22, first off if you ever find a group that can have fun without drinking can you let me know so i can join in ? I’m in a similar situation, I’m graduating this year, but sex, and drinking don’t appeal to me at all. I had a gf but that just crashed and burned because I’m an awful boyfriend. I get how you feel alone though, everyday I go to school, and talk with people, and they may call themselves my friends, but I’ve never connected with someone enough to call them a real friend, or actually have anyone constantly include me in on hanging out with them. Just know you’re not alone in the search to finding that sense of belonging

Oh yah this is an awesome place to vent heck I’ve been posting on this forum since back in early January!! And yah I felt the same about drinking, but I actually considered doing it on a few occasions, but I realized that I don’t want to drink everytime I get down because then I could become an alcoholic or whatever, and that would just lead to more problems
But hey good luck in everything Hullaballoo, and keep writing in those journals I was in a writing class at the time, so I was even wrong poetry about everything. There are tonnes of contests you can submit to for free and it feels awesome if anything gets accepted just another possible idea

Hullabaloo22,

It’s cool to hear that you’re liking this as a place to talk; that’s what we’re here for!

I can hear just how different you feel from all the people around you, like you’re speaking a different language altogether. There’s a sense in your words of deep frustration that everyone else seems to value a very opposite set of things from those which you consider important… You mention trying to be happy alone, and it gives me an idea of the conflict within you where you want to connect with people who you see everyday, but you don’t want to adopt the habits that seem to be a necessary part of that connection.

I am glad to hear that you’re looking after yourself so gently and finding ways to cope, such as journaling. I can imagine that writing is really cathartic for you…. A way to let off some of the steam, perhaps?

Stay strong Hullaballoo22. We’re here if you want to keep venting.

The Support Team

Also, thank you for sharing your perspective and ideas, Martin! It’s really creative to think of submitting writing to contests as a way to cope.

Dear Hullaballoo,

You are certainly NOT alone. As someone who has grown up in a small town I know exactly how you feel. I remember thinking to my self that life doesn’t make sense and that I most definitely don’t see the point of it. I felt like such an alien looking in on what other people seemed to think was so normal and natural…when to me it seemed so illogical and frankly just boring. I wondered what the point was. Well, I found my answers after being prompted to ask questions…like who am I and why am I here? And what I found I think will help you to make sense of things too…
there are some people who just aren’t ‘meant’ to fit in. This sounds like you. Though sometimes it does seem like there’s not many of us…there are more then what you know. We are just spread out. Stay strong and True with who you are and what you value deeply. It’s creating an example for others. Also, you will find others like you. That’s the beauty of social media these days. Keep your chin up and your heart open. You’ll find what you’re looking for. With Deep Love & Gratitude, BlueStarSeedofLove

This might be quite late heh but I just joined and trust me… I had alot of crap happen and regret cause I wanted to fit in. I never liked it- I was always bullied for being different and not wanting to get it on with half the school or dress half naked.. as a girl its hard to go around high school as a girl who just well wants to be different its like one look and everyone hates us. I only want one person for my life to understand me and you deserve friends who understand you I hope you find it and if no one likes you for who you are then tobad! You deserve great friends and i hope by now you have some or heck id be your friend !