Hi Liddell,

I hear you desperately searching for answers to why everything feels so messed up… youve been coping (as best you can) but I get the sense its becoming more than you bear much longer. The pain of living with all the drama and torment makes suicide look like a real option.

Im really worried about you Liddell… it doesn’t sound like anyone in your life understands what youre going through Im wondering how strong your thoughts of suicide have been lately? What’s helping you hold onto life? Im glad you posted – youre not alone here

Im also glad youre still searching for help – that you havent given up yet. Youre still hoping things will change… but I also hear how tired youre getting of waiting. Im so frustrated by how youve been treated by the professionals who were supposed to be helping… I suspect those experiences (and people) make it even harder to ask for help again? Im wondering, you said you need help – what kind of help do you think you need? Maybe we can get you connected to real support… we’ll definitely try.

Stay strong Liddell, and please stay safe…
the Support Team

Hi Liddell,

So glad you’re connected here… we don’t hate you The way you’re being treated by everyone else is truly hateful and cruel… Ill never understand why some people are so horrible – it’s not right or fair. And it’s certainly not your fault – not for a second. You deserve to be happy, and loved…

I’m not sure where you live… the availability of different types of support often depends on where you live, but a couple good places to start (which hopefully would lead to more supports) are a doctor and a local crisis line (phone or online). Crisis lines usually have a lot of information of different types of help that are out there, and a doctor can help with your thoughts of suicide. I’m not gonna lie and say its easy to get support – unfortunately, sometimes it can feel impossible, but there are a lot of different types of help available, and also a lot of people who want to help.

I’m Not sure if you’ve tried out our chat/text, but we’d love to connect there… and of course you can always continue posting here while you figure out how to get more supports in your life. We’re ‘hear’ for you, Liddell…

Stay strong,
the Support Team

Hey Liddell,

Thank you for staying connected to us here. I can hear how completely fed-up you are with your life in the lower main land, and how desperately you want an escape. It seems like you are standing alone in this battle, and I really admire your courage in reaching out to us and holding onto hope that people care. We really do care, and want to support you in coming to a place where you feel safe and loved.

I’m worried for your safety Liddell. I can see that suicide has been an option for you in the past, and that right now you are desperate to find a solution to the pain of your life. I’m wondering…when you say “I’m done here” are you thinking of ending your life?

I can hear that you want your life to change, but you don’t feel supported by your shrink. Sounds like the next step for you is finding a safe haven to support and protect you during your recovery process…is that right? I’m thinking that while your feelings towards the mental ward are conflicted, you felt safe there and are considering it as an option.

I’d love to help you locate some more resources, but I’m not sure exactly what kinda services you are looking for. If you chat or text in between 6-11pm PST we can talk more about what would be useful for you. Also, http://www.BC211.ca is an online list of services that might help you in your search.

Stay connected,
the Support Team