Something I have a really hard time facing happen this week on my watch a careworker quit and that is ok on the outside I really feel like nobody cares I am getting a headache every day because I am so sad and at the end of this 20 days of care people I am in bad shape I want to end it but I don’t at the same time nobody cares and that the truth when this care person quit she ended all contact with me like I was nobody this 20 days I have been holding the feelings back but I can’t run forever I have to make a dustion I can keep fighting or I can give up and I really am wanting to give up I am feeling pretty hopeless