It sounds as though you’re struggling to keep a smile on your face but inside you’re crying out… it’s as if you’ve spent all of your energy to keep the house nicely painted but the foundation on the inside is rotting and crumbling around you without anyone really seeing the damage. I’m so sorry to hear that this care worker left you feeling abandoned and I truly appreciate that you take the time to share your feelings with us here at youthspace.
I can hear how heavy the darkness is becoming around you and how loud those thoughts of suicide are ringing inside of your head… I also hear though that there is a part of you still wanting to fight to stay alive. I’m wondering what keeps that part of you fighting to live? We are here to listen to you Dan and I hope you’ll chat in with us one of these nights if the feelings become too much to carry alone.
The Support Team