Welcome to our forum and thank you for sharing your experience with SI here. I can hear how intertwined art and self-harm have become for you and what a deep awareness you have about how tattooing affects your state of mind.
I get the sense that the repetitive behaviour you describe has been with you for a long time and that you only recently made the connection that this might be a form of SI for you. I’d imagine it would be a surprise to discover that something that feels so natural may be destructive as well.
We are here to support you Raven through whatever you’re experiencing.
The Support Team