Wow Nie,

It’s quite something how connected you and your dog are — and that you are there for him, and he is there for you. It’s huge to have someone in your life you can rely on as support (even if they have 4 legs ). It’s good to hear that he’s feeling better.

I can hear though, that your pain is enduring, Nie. It sounds like it’s hard to tell what the future will bring, and that you feel very precarious, and that you don’t know how much you might want to end your life from moment to moment. That seems like a bleak and scary place to be. Is there anyone you could reach out to if you did start to feel very suicidal? We’re always here for you, but I know that responses can take a few days on the forum, and I’m wondering what you might be able to do if those feelings come on really strong all of a sudden?

Stay strong.
The Support Team