I’m so glad you are reaching out. Your pain is not invisible to me, I hear it and see it. Know that no matter how loudly others may be calling, Youthspace will be there for you when you need someone to talk to.
I get the sense you are struggling to find the motivation to stop self harming or trying to stay alive when the signs you are seeing seem to point to it not mattering. I imagine you feel incredibly alone with your pain, and that every day that goes by without a hand to reach out and pull you out of the darkness makes it harder for you to think you will ever be able to climb out. It sounds like you are desperate for change, but are disheartened by how little others seem to see or care about your struggling.
Is there anything in your life right now that helps take the edge off that darkness, and maybe brings a small piece of calm?
Keep reaching out, and know that we’re here reaching back for you