I can really hear how hopeless life feels for you right now and that you’re thinking everything you’ve worked to build for yourself in this life is crumbling. I’d imagine it feels incredibly lonely to feel as though you are falling apart but be unable to share that pain with those in your life. I’m really glad that you take the time to come here and share your struggles with us. I wonder if there is anything that brings you some hope or peace right now in your life?
It seems as though you have a pretty good sense of your own risk when you’re self-harming and that right now you’re not feeling that you’re in danger — I do want to check in to see if you think you would be able to seek medical attention if things get to that point?