Point blank, yes I have thought about suicide. I have been planning for three weeks now and I will do it on the last week of October either on the 26 or around the 30th and 31st. I’m scared but also tired with the way I’ve been feeling and I don’t know anywhere else I can receive help. I feel like I am in a corner trying to pathetically save myself from the monsters in front of me. Maybe I am entering the brink of insanity but I want it to go away so bad.
I have tried every resource I have but it seems that they have strangely disappeared or they have restrictions on how many people can post for a day or something, and it is an absolute nightmare trying to make time for scheduled times on when people are available. And I am not quite ready to go in the hospital to receive help any time soon.
I am not even quite sure this would help me