I’m so sorry that you’re stuck in this frustrating situation. It’s understandable that you would be feeling so much anger over your coworker’s cruelty. I can also hear how exhausting it’s been for you to struggle every day under the weight of your anxiety and feeling like no one really gets how much extra effort it takes you just to get through work while you’re fighting that. It must be so scary to imagine losing a job that you need so badly over your reaction to your coworker’s bullying, especially when your boss doesn’t fully understand what’s going on.
I can really hear how desperate you are to find a solution to end the bullying. I’m wondering if you might find it helpful to look over this page from the RCMP about bullying and what you can do about it. Maybe there’s something in there that could be useful for you?
Please know that we are here to listen and support you through this tough time.