Nope, just you guys. It’s been hard to message you guys on the online chat because of the different time zones. I’ve been taking my meds regularly to help calm me down, but that’s the only action I’ve been taking for myself. I do have other support and resources, but I just don’t reach out to them, I don’t know why. I guess I’m scared of what they’re going to say, I’ve been doing so well and now I’ve relasped.
I don’t know I’ve been acquiring very nasty habits, when bored just eating. And eating everything in general. I’m not hungry or anything I just need to do something with myself. I have been ignoring my studies, and avoiding people. I just don’t want to try to anymore because I feel like it won’t make any sense at the end. I’m ready to accept my failure at life and having no one really there for me other than the people I might meet throughout the time and path of my no good life. I just really don’t know what to do everyday and year is like I get worse and I don’t know why. I don’t want to be this way, and my mental state is too corrupted now to pretend and ignore what I’m going through like before.
