Welcome to the Youthspace forum 🙂 It sounds like you’ve been riding on a rough roller coaster for awhile now, but lately things have gotten to an even darker place. I’m really sorry to hear things are so intense for you right now and my guess is that would leave you feeling really helpless….wanting to do something but not knowing how to get anything to change 🙁
I really hear your desire to get help and figure out what’s right for you…wondering if the hospital is a good idea, or if it should be the next step. I can’t tell you what’s right for you in this situation but I want you to know that we’re here to support you in this period and if you want to talk in real time to help hash out this decision you are more than welcome to chat or text in to youthspace.ca between the hours of 6-12PST. Especially if you’re sensing a more imminent risk at following through with your plan, we’re much better able to support you in a chat than on the forum. Also let us know if you want other resources you could call into if you’re feeling like going through with your plan.
It sounds like this is a really challenging period for you that’s got you completely exhausted, overwhelmed and at a loss for what to do…know that you’re not alone and we’re here sending you thoughts and care on this summer evening breeze.