Welcome back…though I wish it were under better circumstances.
It must feel so disheartening to feel like you are slipping back into that place of darkness. I get the sense that you are feeling so alone and so dejected in your sorrow, especially when you try to reach out for support. I can also hear the fear from you that you might slip back down, so far down that where you stood just a few days ago seems utterly unattainable.
It feels like you have spent a great deal of time and effort to keep pushing yourself and climbing that hill. I’m also sensing that your usual means of self-care and coping strategies just aren’t helping as much as you need them to right now.
I have scoured our resources here and found a couple in hopes that it can help you through this terribly distressing time:
Dealing with Depression –> this website has some really good tips and skills for working through depression as well as some quick facts.
Students Against Depression –> has a lot of really good information and a few guides on tackling depression.
I hope you are able to find some peace and regain your footing.
Know that we are here for you, any time on the Forum and from 6pm-12am PST on the chat.