I’m really sorry to hear your grandma isn’t well I hope you’re able to figure out how to be with her… the extra pressure of money & rent must just add to your stress.
From what you said it sounds like your encounter with the man turned really unpleasant and a bit earth-shaking… I’m glad you listened to YOU and left… and went to safety. I’m wondering how you’re feeling about your relationship with M? You mentioned how he sees/wants things, and I’m curious what you think? And sorry, I’m confused, what makes you call yourself an idiot?
DD (if I may), I hear you beating yourself up for feeling so lost… and blaming yourself for how life goes You’re not alone, we’re in your corner… stay strong.
the Support Team.