I’d imagine it’s hard trying to deal with all of this on your own. It sounds as though you feel like you have to hide parts of yourself because you think people have an idea of who you should be. At the same time I can hear how alone you feel with your addiction, and that you want to be able to talk to someone who won’t judge you. I’d imagine you feel isolated without someone in your life you can share your worries and feelings with.
I’m glad you keep sharing what’s going on for you with us.
The support team