Oh Nie I can really hear how lost you’re feeling and how confused you are by your own actions. I’m really scared for you because it really seems like you are acting in a way that even you don’t understand and there doesn’t seem to be anyone in your life that you feel safe opening up to. I get the sense that the situation you found yourself in last night could have ended up being really unsafe and I could be wrong but it seems like maybe you scared yourself as well?
I’m really grateful that you see this as a safe space to share what’s going on for you and I hope you’ll continue to do so… also please remember that we are here every night 6-11pm PST to support you through our live chat if you need us. We are here for you Nie.