i know people do care but sometimes I feel that they don’t

At the end of the week there has-been up and down because of the careworker had some friends over that are other careworkers and I am just going into the past it is hard not to also in a couple of weeks it is my birthday and the careworkers want to celebrate but when I think of my birthday I feel sad because I don’t want to celebrate a thing that I feel sad everyday of the year I don’t want to celebrate that