I can hear what a dragging feeling it is to have to keep going, feeling as though the drugs are the only thing that helps at all with that….
It does sound maddening that everyone around seems so intent on celebrating something that is only a source of pain for you. I’m guessing that it feels like a reminder of how little they see of the true emotions that are battling back and forth inside of you. I get the sense that you’re feeling misunderstood on a critical level by the very people who are supposed to see you most clearly.
When you say you took the mind test? Are you talking about the one at mindcheck.ca? If so, getting a 1 seems very low (as in low stress)!
-The Support Team