Oh Dan, it sounds to me like you’re so heartbroken that your life and day-to-day reality can be boiled down by anybody to just a “job.” I get the sense it’s depressing to hear your care giver so casually say she has time off, when you yourself feel trapped in your unhappiness and can’t just simply “take a day off” from what you are going through.
I would guess you are hesitant that celebrating your birthday would bring you any feelings of celebration, or even that it might bring a bit of relief from feeling like you are a burden to those around you. I can hear how overwhelming it is for you to face the future and wonder if you will ever have relief from feeling like a job.
We’ll be thinking about you, Dan, and sending good thoughts you way for your birthday.
the Support Team