Couples all around me, you know I have not talked about this with anybody I just am embarrassed that I have these feelings will I ever be in a relationship I know I am now the only one that feelings this way but doesn’t make it easy
Saturday I am going to the funeral for the friend that died last week and I feel the battle that is live made her die I know that is not true but I feel that that is the only way out of this pain sometimes I wonder what I am fighting for I feel I am really sad and nobody understands

I am going camping this weekend maybe that will be good for me