The day has took a turn I don’t know why right now I am feeling suicidal again Because my lunch person was good and I was reflecting on past workers and I am sad because I have the same feelings as I did when I had that tight emotional attachment and now I feel abandon because they are all gone I don’t want to tell new people because I will be hurting again and what is the point with that and my friend is getting married and i just am feeling is that going to be in my life as well as both my brothers has girlfriends and it is just a matter of time before they get married all these things are bringing up bad thoughts