I just want to give a quick update I had a meeting to get a new care worker I just am annoyed about this care giver game is getting really old making me angry I only see two ways out death or having some support that understands who I am what I feel from care workers to wanting him a girlfriend I am relieved that you guys are open over Christmas break because it feels that I am having a bumpy landing as I enter a new year with painful memos: (