It sounds like your emotions are taking you on a real ride right now. I get the sense that you’ve been having a lot of bittersweet and sadly nostalgic moments as you look back on the helpers that you’ve had around you. It sounds like it’s exhausting to have to constantly re-explore your painful feelings as people come and go in your life — like when you finally feel like you can be open and trust someone, they leave and another person comes in to their place. :'(
Sounds as though yesterday was a really dark day filled with a lot of memories and thoughts about the future that felt really bleak and painful. I’m glad you reached out here Dan, in the midst of all that raw emotion. How are you doing now?
Sending warm thoughts your way,
The Support Team