I am feeling as if I am not myself i feel that I am having to hide everything but people don’t care that I am hurting so much i feel that I can’t sleep emotionally because the person talked to is gone now I need to be brave and pretend that everything is good when it is when not if I go to hospital that is only a temporary fix and I don’t want to die but the future looks so dark and i feel that I want to commit suicide but I know that I want to fight but i don’t it is really hard to explain