I ended up calling a crisis line last night and we talked for an hour. We tried to find solutions, but we weren’t able to do so. I was in total panic, and I didn’t have control over my emotions, fears, tears. I was almost crying over the phone to someone I didn’t know. She ended up feeling that I wasn’t safe, that I could put myself in danger, and she sent me the police for help. But when they arrived, I wasn’t in panic anymore, but they saw I needed help, so they brought be to the hospital. But now, they don’t want me to call me if I ain’t in danger, or that it isn’t an emergency. I mean, how am I suppose to know that my life isn’t im danger when I’m always feeling out of control and scared?