Oh Sophiexx, I’m sorry that it’s so incredibly hard to find your way out of the labyrinth of pain that you’re feeling stuck in. Thanks for telling us that you do have a counsellor (although you’re always welcome to use the email one at the same time) — I can hear though that you feel like the professional help isn’t doing very much at all. I can imagine how heavily that might disappoint you when you are already having trouble seeing any hope.
We are very scared for you as well, Sophiexx! We can very much hear the uncertainty that you express about staying safe and it sounds like the most painful tightrope walk — every day. :’( I speak for all of us here when I say that we want to do everything that we can to support you. What kind of help do you think you need right now? When you say that you need some help to save yourself, are you able to tell me what that looks like?
The edge sounds dangerously close for you, Sophiexx. I hope that you can keep reaching out through those feelings to get support. WE would miss you. Please stay connected. <img src="smileys/heart.gif" width="" height="" alt="<3" title="
The Support Team