Everything just has been a roller coster lately. And I don’t feel like i can hold on to life anymore. I’m already imaginating a new way to end my life, and it’s pretty scary. I keep on dreaming that someone, or even me, is killing me…and thats really scary. It doesnt make sense that somebody should dream about that.

I’m scared that I could harm myself so badly. I’m scared that I wouldn’t be able to control my thoughts and my feelings. Everything scares me. Everything around me doesnt seem real anymore. Everyone doesn’t seem real. The world doesn’t seem real. I think I need help.