I dream of moments where everything would just end. Where I would find myself spinning in space, alone (or not), finding a way through these fears and screams. But that dream is impossible. That dream is impossible. I am stuck. Stuck in this turning wheel of torture. It pushes me to edges I thought never existed. It makes me cry at night. It makes me make nightmares. Even during day time I see these nightmares. I see poeple that are wanting to hurt me. My own mind is playing games on me and I just can’t take it anymore.
What would you do if I told you that my life was so horrible, that sometimes seeing a simple light at the end of the tunnel seems impossible, that I just want to end it, finish everything off?
It’s a scary thing to think about this.
It’s a scary thing to be able to think like this.
I seriously don’t know what to do at this moment.
I am so scard. So so scared.