I can really hear that you feel like fear is beginning to consume you, like snowball, taking everything it its path. I get the sense that you feel like the people you were once close with seem more and more like strangers with each day that passes, and that just adds more weight to the snowball .
It sounds like you fear what might happen if you continue down this path, especially when self-harm seems so viable. It seems that you are struggling to find a solution to hang on to what you still have with your parents. I can only imagine the pain that strikes you when you are reminded of the happy family that you long for.
Thank you for continuing to share your story with us. We want to keep hearing from you. Please remember that we are here for you every evening if you want to chat. Hang in there Sophie.
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