Yeah it’s true I mean I honestly do love him a lot but I’m so scared of the thought that I might have to let go sometime and I think about what I would do after that but I don’t know because I just can’t trust people properly and you can’t have a relationship if you don’t trust someone enough…
I just think and think about it and I just don’t see myself ever being able to trust someone enough and I get this weird feeling but I just can’t explain it and I’m so damn confused and my emotions are all twisted and knotted up but I don’t know how to untangle them.