Hi Terezi,
There is really no need to apologize! We are here for you when you have time. I’m thinking that perhaps the email counselling available on our site might be a more direct approach to you getting the sort of support you need. Have you tried that service? As you know, we aren’t able to offer advice here, but the email is with a professional counsellor, so they might be able to offer more direction than us. Just a thought.

I really respect your selfawareness, and realization that you need support with some of the things going on in your life. I hope you have some supportive people around you right now. If you want to tell us more about what’s going on we are happy to work through things with you in your own time.

Here for you,
Youthspace