I can imagine how emotionally draining it must be for you to even think about trusting someone else the way that you have learned to trust your boyfriend in the past year. You’ve come a long way. I can hear the anxiety that arises for you to even consider another long and painful process of learning to trust another.
It seems that trust, for you, is something that takes a long time to build, and is earned and reserved for those who prove that they can be trusted. And even with all that, you still have moments of mistrust that come up. I can imagine that it feels like you have both worked so hard at trust and yet these “irritating moments of skepticism” continue to creep up. It makes me think that your starting to wonder if these moments will ever go away and leave you feeling at peace.
On the one hand, it feels like you will never be able to completely and fully trust someone but on the other hand, you have made so much progress in the past year. I am wondering how it makes you feel to think about where you were at then and where you are at now?
Always here for you,
the Support Team