hi guys, I’ve glanced at this place before but I don’t remember joining or not. hope it’s okay that I made I new account since none of the emails I tried to log in with worked.
I was just wondering if it’d be a good idea to get tested again for both ADHD and anxiety disorders. my mum said some doctor said I had it way back when I was really young, but since that was so long ago I think it would be a good idea to check that out again. she didn’t believe in the medication that they gave kids then, so I’ve never used any. I actually would prefer to avoid it anyway if I did still have ADHD.
also, the reason I wanted to know if I should check out both was because since they share some symptoms I could be confused. a lot of times in everyday life it will be impossible for me to do one page of reading for homework if I’m not in the “homework mood” as I call it. I’ll also forget something I had just said, or done that morning or in the previous week-I’ve got a terrible sense of time. also I tend to make a lot of impulsive, embarassing decisions or comments. I got told to “think before I speak” a LOT in elementary school.
what makes me wonder if I have anxiety is that in social situations that I’m not prepared for I can get very anxious. for example, I’ve gone to the councilor’s office a few times now since I’ve started high school and every time for the night and day leading up to it I’ll be anxious. just as I’m going to bed, I’ll stay awake for a long time planning what I’ll say, analyzing why I’m going and will fall into this very complicated preparation for the appointment. then throughout the day I’ll feel dehydrated, nauseous, flustered, unable to concentrate, incapable of changing my thoughts, and pee a LOT (<--probably from drinking a lot of water). and once I actually get there I'll be teary. in the councilor's office at least it's safe and I don't worry about what he'll think or anything, but it becomes a problem when it's in the public. adding onto this, I pretty much hung out with one group of friends pretty much since I moved here in grade one up until last year in grade eight (note we were a pretty "nerdy" group so I missed out on normal things like the "cool" parties, sports and events). so, now that I'm trying to branch out from them to make new friends (thankfully I had a few friends that could introduce me to theirs) I don't really know how to act in certain situations other kids are used to? like when a guy is goofy with me I get really flustered and can't tell if he's just being goofy or flirting with me, so then my brain goes into overdrive and I try to act normal but I still get super blushy and hot and laugh at everything and forget how to function.
also i think i’ve got a few irrational fears but I can still cope with them but I’ll leave those for another day.

so yeah I dunno I’ve never really typed that all up but I actually think that might have been helpful. I’ve left out lots since obviously things like this can’t be summarized into one post, but I tried to explain as best I could, hahahah (: