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  • #16471

    Nie
    Member

    I overdosed * a few days ago and again last night and I can feel myself dying. I’ve been uncontrollably sick as hell and I know that its coming to me soon. it hurts and I feel soo tired all the time now. if its not tonight I don’t know when im taking my last breath. just that its soon…

    *edited by The Support Team

  • #19158
    Youthspace
    Youthspace
    Moderator

    Nie,
    I can only imagine how ill you are feeling right now. I’m scared for you and your physical health, hearing that you feel yourself dying. When you say it hurts I’m wondering if you have taken these concerns to a doctor?

    Can I ask if the overdose you survived was a suicide attempt? I can imagine that you chose this Thread of the forum for a reason, and am glad you feel safe in sharing your experience with us. It sounds like these dark feelings have been with you for a long time now and that you are feeling almost apathetic about death?

    Are you open to getting some help? I’m really scared for you and do not want to imagine you taking your last breath any time soon. If you feel in danger please call 911 or a crisis line. If you want to Chat we are online every evening for you. We would love to hear more about the emotions behind that overdose and support you through this time.

    <3 be safe
    The Support Team

  • #19160

    Nie
    Member

    I want to be dead but I think I might be pregnant now and that is keeping me from wanting to suicide*.. and yeah sorta was..i don’t know how im still breathing

    *Edited by Youthspace.ca

  • #19162
    Youthspace
    Youthspace
    Moderator

    Nie,

    I can hear that you are just barely holding on to life. You seem shocked that you are still here with us. And I’m thankful that you have kept yourself alive thus far.

    You are torn between life and death, and I’m thinking that your potential pregnancy is complicating your thoughts of suicide even further. Can you tell us more about your feelings around this?

    We want to know how you’re feeling. How can we help keep you safe tonight?

    Here for you,
    Youthspace

  • #19164

    Nie
    Member

    I just don’t want to end the life* of a little innocent being that might be inside me … I don’t care about myself but if I have a child in there… I don’t want to end its* life out of self hate…

    **edited by Youthspace

  • #19166
    Youthspace
    Youthspace
    Moderator

    Nie,

    You’re feelings of protectiveness over the potential life within you come across incredibly strong. Is there anything else we can help you explore (with that strength in mind) to help you hold on to your life?

    <3 Youthspace

  • #19168

    Nie
    Member

    idk its the only value in my body… that little possible life otherwise I am complete garbage, white trash, a whore

  • #19172
    Youthspace
    Youthspace
    Moderator

    Hi Nie,

    I’m hearing how absolutely worthless you’re feeling except for this potential light you see inside of you. I know you can’t see anything good about yourself but we at youthspace believe that you are absolutely worthwhile whether you pregnant or not. We are here to support you Nie and hope that you will continue to fight with the last part of you that feels like living is an option.

    <3 Youthspace

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