I don’t want to seem like I’m complaining or anything, I just wanted someone around me to understand what I’m going through and not add onto it by judging.
It feels exactly like that. Especially when my own friends always mention to me that I have no reason to feel this way because other people feel like this as well. I understand that, but does it mean that I should always put people before me ? I’ve done this before, and effing everytime, people don’t give a crap.
I tried the chatting, it’s not as helpful as I thought it would be.
I don’t trust people anymore. They all lie, cheat and screw you over. And every time you think it’s going to be different, they always change on you and become something or someone completely different that you thought they would not be. I don’t like being alone, but I think I’m destined to be. I don’t know why I shouldn’t kill myself because it wouldn’t make a difference at all to anyone anyways. But I don’t know how I would do it, and I’m too fricken weak to go through with it.
I’m just done with everyone.