Sounds like you are really worried about what’s been going on for you lately, and that you’re feeling shaken by how out of control your emotions, sleep, and eating habits have become. I would guess that it’s stressful going into a new school year with the added challenges of what is going on in your body and mind right now. Have these changes been going on for a while now, or are they hitting you all of a sudden?
I get the sense that arming yourself with knowledge about bipolar disorder made you feel a little less helpless as you began to recognize some of the symptoms in yourself and can potentially put a name to what you are going through. I would guess in some ways that makes this even more scary for you, not only to have to face the reality of what bipolar might mean for you but to have to face a doctor or psychiatrist to start the process of getting a diagnosis. It sounds like you have felt really let down by therapists in the past, which makes the thought of reaching out for help even harder to bear. I’m glad you’re taking some steps by talking about it here…I’m guessing there’s a big leap between posting anonymously on our forum and walking through the door of a therapist or doctor’s office though, hey? We unfortunately can’t give you a diagnosis or treatment here, but we can definitely provide a safe space to talk about your struggles and brainstorm with you some ideas of what to do next.
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