It’s good to hear from you again. I am sorry you have been having such a tough time lately. Being sick sounds as though it has really sapped your energy and left you feeling pretty despondent. I imagine having to manage your health without caring assistance from the doctors and people around you would be exhausting. And then being behind in school again because you’ve been ill just adds to the stress you’re already feeling. Sounds like all in all, you’re feeling disappointed and fed up with having so much to deal with. I wonder what have you done in the past when you’ve been feeling this run down to take care of yourself?
I can hear how frustrating it is having the church on your case about your sexual orientation and how it contributes to you feeling bad about yourself. I am sorry that is happening to you. Everyone deserves to be respected and accepted for who they are.
I get the sense that you’re feeling really isolated, particularly since the lgbt group you attend sounds like it no longer feels safe to you because your ex goes there. From what you’ve said, it seems like it was a painful break-up that you’re still healing from and some of her actions have left you feeling a little angry and betrayed.
Know that we’re here for you and will support you the best we can. You’re also welcome to chat in from 6-11pm PST if you want to talk in ‘real time’ too.