I am frighteningly serious about my demise, it scares me on how dark I am now. I have this attuide where I don’t care what I do anymore because i always think ‘I’ll be dead in a few days tops.’
I have every crisis hotline saved on my phone, in case I really couldn’t go through with it, and have someone talk me through my feelings, and stuff.
I don’t really know how to help myself anymore, or what can be useful to me. I don’t find a lot of things to work for me.