Wow, Mazzystar, thank you for sharing your story with us, and with the world through this forum.
I get why you chose the title you did – it seems like you’ve been dealt a pretty tough set of cards. With your mom leaving when you were so young, and then growing up feeling trapped by your dad’s strict ways, I would imagine that you haven’t really had that experience of feeling taken care of in a stable, warm home. And it sounds like once you entered the health care system, things got even bleaker. From your description, I can hear how unsupported, mistreated, and betrayed you felt by the health care workers. I’m so sorry to hear that that’s been your experience; everyone deserves to receive care and be treated with kindness. I can imagine you feel like you have little control of things in your life, and are crippled by some of the challenges you’ve had – and are still dealing with. And I can hear your outrage in your words, and it seems like part of telling your story is about sharing what it’s been like for you so that other people might have a different (better) experience.
Seems like right now, finding housing is a pretty big priority too…most cities and towns have organizations that can help people find housing…is that something you’re interested in? If you want to share your city here or in our chat feature, we might be able to help you get involved with an organization like this.
But I know that housing is just a piece of the puzzle, and that you’re still coping with so much emotional pain and anger. It must feel like there is always a wall in your way, Mazzystar. I’m really glad you’ve shared here, and I invite you to keep doing so, if it feels helpful. Our chat feature is also open every night, 6pm-midnight PST. <3