I am happy right now but I know the pills are working its funny when they are working I am good but I still am remembered that tomorrow starts everything, I feel that the relationship thing and the care worker thing and just feeling tried thinking about the past and I just don’t know how to cope anymore the past is too painful right now I feel druged up and I feel that is the best way even when I feel that I am running away from myself and nobody cares about me it sometimes feels that way you know what is funny we call care workers “care workers” because they care for the physical needs but not emotional

when you say not a human do you mean church i do go to church and that is helpful