I have not had someone who can see so much of what I trying to say and understand those feelings. I went to my first anorexics and bulimics anonymous meeting tonight and was amazed at how at ease I felt in the environment. It was better than what I had pictured in my head and I am glad I went despite being petrified. The suicidal thoughts are fading slowly, I finally had tea at my really good friends house that I had not really spoken to in a couple months which is weird because we are in the same classes, which shows how out of it I have been. I am slowly regaining myself as I build these supports around me. just wanted to thank you guys for being there for me it is still a battle but I am starting to see a light and I am actively trying to get there, I will just keep working away.