I have being good on the outside I have a cold and it makes me reflect the emotional pain inside of me I have suicidal thoughts but I feel that what is the point of telling somebody I lost all hope because there is two results hospital or taking my life I feel that I have nothing to look forward to I just want to be like everybody else: (

I do get to be loved i am a job and I have a job to keep everybody happy that is my task i am not special enough to have personal life here is where the suicidal thoughts come