Well… I ended up having a really bad day and finally told my parents I was suicidal. They freaked out and said they didn’t want me under a lot of stress so they threatened to not let me audition for this upcoming show. They finally relented, so I’m good to go there.
I was feeling really suicidal today, and I tried to ask my mom to not leave me alone because I was scared of myself, but she just left anyway. I sat home by myself for two hours, begging myself to not do anything.
I regret telling them, because now I have expectations of them. Things were so much easier when I didn’t.
Time to put the mask back on and go back to pretending that everything’s okay.