I don’t think I’m going to kill myself yet, if that’s what you’e asking. I don’t have the guts to do it, because I’m too scared that it’ll hurt.
As for strategies that help, not really anything specific. I avoid places where there are dangerous things, and I avoid places that remind me of where I have it planned if I ever go through with it. None of that “read a book, write in your journal, or watch TV,” stuff really works for me. I can still think. So I usually just try and get on here or somewhere similar. I don’t know. It’s pretty stupid, but I haven’t killed myself yet, so I must be doing something right.
As for chat well, and this may or may not get me kicked off of the site, you guys don’t accept people from the US, so that doesn’t work so much. I either go to crisischat or the trevor project if I really need to talk.
I’m not doing as bad as I was when I wrote that. That was a really bad day for me, and everything was just piling up. Today’s a bit better. It’s still awful and miserable, but that’s just how life is, so… yeah.